Earth Shaking News

Monday night we had a 4.4 Earthquake that woke us up at 4AM. A couple of hours before that I'd left the bed to go write because I couldn't sleep. I have felt such a shift of consciousness lately. I'm being asked to really let go. What does this look like? It looks like complete, uncensored trust in God and Good. While I was writing, I said, "...I feel the earth shaking around me." Well, less than two hours later, it shook all right. But, it is metaphorical, so very metaphorical.

I've been shook up lately in many ways and have had to have total faith. A part of me feels like I want to go running and screaming and I'm not exactly sure where I would run. And so, I keep going within.

It's Boundaries and Priorities week in Mental Muscle workshop. I write my priorities for today:

Today, I will live lighter. I will let go. Today, I'll see and live in Spirit everywhere I go. Today, I'll make my day better and thereby making everyone else's day better. Today, I'll keep my thoughts a little straighter. Today, I'll serve wherever I go. Today, I KNOW a little more and know a little less. Today, I'll have a little more patience and more understanding. Today, I'll not judge by appearance. Today, I'll allow, accept and receive. Today, I'll let go of all my boundaries.

So, I went out on my run. A little panic came through me. I don't know why...and then the words, "Stay close to me, I am here." I kept repeating it over and over. Then I wanted to text it to Patrick, my husband. I stopped and did it, but the message just went without me typing his number in. I have no idea where it went.

As I ran, I saw a homeless lady. She was sitting on a bench, and then getting up, pulling her pants up. It was wet on the ground beneath her. I realized she'd used the bench as a toilet. She looked at me and said hello. I said hello and smiled and we both went our way.

I don't know what to say, but after that I wept (not for sorrow, but for love) and then I said a prayer. I believe in that moment I used pretty much every priority I had set.